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The pain of walking away
Stays with me
But how could I evolve if I did stay?
How could we be happy?

Loving you was a metamorphosis
I never knew that loving you
Being lost in the taste of your kiss
Would transform me into something new

Tradgey struck
Loss greater than any love can heal
Here we were stuck
Life so painful and surreal

You lost a piece of you too soon
And I lost you
Time for the cocoon
Time to transform pain anew

There is no work here
Just waiting and processing it all
The cocoon makes you face fear
I wait wrapped in a shelled ball

Of thought and grief
Embracing the here and now
So still we are in our beliefs
But most evolve somehow

The time is coming for me too
Wake up and break free
Leave my cocoon and see anew
Butterfly wings will sprout from me

Before I can fly
I await in my cocoon
As my old self dies
And my new self will emerge soon

Until then I lay still
Letting us go in time so slow
Processing everything I did feel
Understanding it was best for me to grow



I feel like I can’t say what I wanted too
I feel like there is a wall
I’m not sure if it’s me or you
Who falls and who stands tall

I want to grow and expand
I want to connect
But all I understand
Is how to disconnect

Inside my fear
Begins to uncoil
Within my hearts surface it nears
And stains and soils

Within the longing for a kiss
Are heartbeats speaking at quick pace
I feel with every lover this
Void of a lonely space

You came so close
I thought I had this
Figured out the right love dose
But there is something I did miss

Cause there is a gap
Between heartbreak and happiness
I’m stuck in the inbetween trap
Longing for my lovers kiss

Out loud I shout
I think I know the error but I don’t
I believe I will figure it out
But I realize I won’t

With me lacking love for myself
How can I give you more
For now I’m a book on a shelf
To be read and explored

One day I will be ready for you
But today is not that day
Love is waiting for me and you
We only just need to find our way

Growth and expansion
Is not an easy journey
But it does ignites passion
Here & beyond my current reality

It’s time for my story to change
For my heart to soar & set sail
And exist within the loving & strange
Time to remove the masked veil

To see my life without fear
Live without limits or hesitation
Appreciate all that is here
Enjoy the loving sensation

Rid of the gap
Between heartbreak and happiness
Time to be released from this self trap
Just lovingly embrace my lovers kiss

One day I will be ready for you
But today is not that day
Love is waiting for me and you
We only just need to find our way



You are some kind wonderful
Now I have meet you
Life has become more meaningful
You just don’t know what you do…

What you do to me
You get me to play
You bring out the best in me
I thought faded away

Right before I had meet you
I had hung out on happy & single avenue
But I got curious about something new
So I crossed Hope road and walked until I saw you

And that’s where we did meet
On the corner street
Of Love and All Dreams come true
This is where I meet you

We talked and hung out
On lustful and Desire avenue
I don’t remember exactly what we talked about
I just remember how I felt for you

There is truth in a spark
Shines away all that is bleak and dark
Reawakens ones heart
As we strolled the road of a New Start

I thought I had put away
My love and hope on a shelf
But then that one unexpected day
I crossed paths with your sexy self

You seemed to have the secrete code
All the right signals you were sending
As we walked on Happy road
And worked on the lane called Best Ever Ending

Now we live at the corner of
Loving Companionship
And Amazing Mutual Love
I’m enjoying this fun loving strip

We do hang out a lot on naughty bend
And respectful way
Always enjoy our walks on best friends
Lane everyday

And now we venture too
All Wonderful Possibilities Highway
And intersect on I’m in Love Avenue
Im so in awe of you in every which way

All roads lead
Right back you
As love and desire continue to seed
And blossom a beautiful life on I’m Happy to be Your Girl avenue






Sweet taste of your lips
Yet the conflict brews
Mixed in passionate ride of this relationship
Pushing me as i push you

Some fun sexy puzzle to solve
Wrapped in your stong embrace
As we work to evolve
Love caressing your handsome face

Conflict, struggle, work and the surprise
The enlighten moment on how to resolve this
Connecting deeper as i meet your loving eyes
Lost in your kiss

Im loves biggest fan
i enjoy the passionate loving push and shove
I love that you are my man
We have the best clean messy love




Blank pages in front of me
Time for a new story
About my transformational journey
Now i find I can clearly see

I review the pages of what I previously wrote
Years of our life together bound
Within paper of images and notes
That I collected when you were around

It’s been awhile
Since I have seen you
To be within the sight of your smile
Since my eyes have enjoyed you

We each played our role
As our pride got in our way
We forgot to connect from our soul
I know my mind and fear got in my own way

Heartbreak to some is a passion crime
Today the sun’s beauty burns
My thoughts as I lose track of time
With each page of us I turn

I can never forget
I can always forgive
I will never regret
The crazy way we did love and live

With you my heart flipped and lept
I was reminded of my beauty
It’s time for me to accept
The closing chapter of us and set you free

I transform
I look within
While my words form
I start to write a new book again

The air whistles a new beautiful tone
Warm embrace as I smile with every beat
Of my heart as I know am never alone
Within my own shadow I am complete

I am glad you were
A lesson for me to learn
As my feelings start to blur
Into new passion I yearn

I am reborn into someone better
Like a butterfly
The past in every word and letter
Full of love as I say goodbye

Blank pages in front of me
Time for a new story
About my transformational journey
Now I find I can clearly see


I set my alarm to wake me at six in the morning and I have decided tomorrow morning I will wake up, have breakfast, workout and walk the dog before I go to work. What could go wrong? My dog hops into bed and takes over the left side.  He looks at me, waiting for me.  I slip into bed next to him.

It’s nine o’clock and I close my eyes to drift to sleep.  Thoughts of the day pass through my mind.  I start reliving moments with customers that really bothered me.  I just try to clear my mind as it begins to stress me out.

Nine-thirty, I began thinking about Jim and  recall our fight we had a couple of days ago.  I begin to wonder why he hasn’t called to work it out.  Perhaps it’s for the best and I try to think myself into being single.  I’m on facebook on my phone.  I’m looking at my relationship status and I wonder if I should change it from being in a relationship to “it’s complicated”.

Ten o’clock, I realize I probably shouldn’t have drank that green tea right before going to bed. Off to the bathroom I go and I grab my phone, I check it and see I have a missed text.  It’s from Jim.  I can’t help but think he is my “it’s complicated” guy.   Nothing can be simple or easy with him.  Part of what attracts me to him and in the same it frustrates the hell out of me.  After three years with him, I thought it would be easier but now I wonder how compatable we really are.

I look at the clock glaring ten thirty and wonder why I can’t sleep?  Why did I look at my darn phone?!  Now I can’t stop thinking about him.  I am confused about us.  I am thinking about walking away for good.  I begin to feel frustrated I’m not asleep, frustrated I have to pee again and frustrated with Jim.

It’s midnight and I am almost done with writing and editing another chapter of my never ending book.   I pick up my phone again after I return from the bathroom….again!  I change my alarm to wake me at seven instead.  I decide I will have to walk the dog after work.  I start organizing my schedule for the week.  I cuddle with the dog who is trying to ignore me cause he is happily sleeping.

One in the morning and I am playing word with friends scrabble. I have 30 games.  I push back my alarm to eight in the morning.  I remember memories that seem unimportant, I’m not sure why I am thinking of them now.  The client from this morning that got under my skin replays in my mind.  I breath and focus on clearing out my thoughts again.  I remember the first time Jim kissed me.  How he pursued me relentlessly and now he goes almost two days without a word.  Just a text that doesn’t help clarify or resolve anything!  I feel we are not right for each other anymore.  I hate how this feels.  I’m frustrated I’m not asleep and I have to go to the damn bathroom again!

Two in the morning, I’ve given up all hope and pushed my alarm to ten.  I don’t have to be in the office until noon.  I will just skip my work out.  I pick up a book and read some. It perhaps was not the best choice, as it is filled with all sorts of interesting stuff and it is hard to stop reading, especially when things get steamy but then I start thinking of Jim again and feel sad and I miss being held by his big strong arms.  I miss how good he smells.  Then I realize my bladder is the size of a peanut.  How can one cup of green tea make me pee this much?!

Three o’clock, I decide take the dog out for a brief walk in my pjs after I pee.  I put on a coat and head out into the brisk morning with my dog in tow. Strange how quite the neighborhood is.  We get to the creek that runs through the neighborhood.  In the stillness I hear a croaking symphony of what sounds like a hundred bullfrogs.  My dog is happily on a mission to leave his mark and pays no attention to the slimey buggers.  He finds his spot next to the biggest toad I’ve ever seen.  The toad doesn’t move and keeps croaking. It’s a surreal moment.  I wonder if I did fall asleep.  I look up at the stars and they shine so brightly with a haze in the sky.  It looked like the Milky Way.   The moon is full and bright.  I push my two fingers into my other hand to see if they slip through my flesh.  They don’t, this is how I know I am still awake.  My dog has accomplished his mission and he happily walks me back to the house.  I think it was a perfect time to walk in my pjs and flip flops.  I take off my jacket.  My dog gets some water and food and I send a text to Jim as I head back to the dam bathroom.  I have decided to forgive him and tell him I miss his sexy ass and want to know when he will be available for some naughty fun with me?

Three-forty-five, I am in shock I am still awake as I am now back in bed laying in the dark and hating on my clock, as I stare it down.  The dog is fast asleep.  I feel like he has a super power of sleep, how does he do it?!

Four-fourteen, I lie there trying to mediate to calm my busy mind.  Shortly after I finally drift off.

Eleven in the morning I wake up, realizing I set my alarm wrong.  Now I’m late and I rush to get ready and be off.  I step in the shower.  I did not hear Jim come in.  He surprises me and slips into the shower.  He tells me he misses me and he is sorry.  I feel so happy in this moment and enjoy his lips as I taste relief and joy.  I feel his strong arms wrapped around my waste.  I decide to call in sick and spend the day in bed….with my “it’s complicated” guy.